Rise and Reprise
Over the course of a few decades, I’ve experienced my share of losses. Yet despite obstacles, I’ve always pursued my dreams. We control our destiny.
But the hardest obstacle I’ve faced is my health. Some health issues are simply out of our hands, while others are preventable. The ones we can prevent… that’s where accountability comes in.
Reflection
Recently, when I heard the word “insulin,” my first thought was of being the caregiver for my maternal grandmother. I will not claim that possibility for myself, I don’t need it now, and I’m working on never needing it. Back then, I administered her medication with dread, scared I would hurt her, and that experience contributed to my anxiety around having blood drawn. I don’t like needles at all. Her diabetes led to other health issues, so you’d think witnessing her decline would have been the catalyst to a healthier lifestyle for me.
Survival
However, the reality is, post-pandemic, I let myself go. I always ate what I wanted and rarely worked out, with minimal consequences. The older you get though, your metabolism and health issues could possibly change things, it did for me. So the bottom line is, you have to drink more water, eat real food, and exercise.
Ultimately, I’ve been selfless forever, putting everyone and everything before me . But now, I’m learning that putting myself first isn’t selfish, it’s survival. I’m listening to what my body’s been trying to tell me for a long time.
Resolution
I’ve chosen peace. I’m moving forward with intention, wisdom and music. This is my ascent. Enjoying my playlists and reflecting on my beloved family as I write. I want to create new memories. A wise man told me a long time ago, that our book is written, but I don’t want to shorten my story because I looove Twinkies and overindulging in sinfully delicious food.
I’ve weathered storms, forged through flames, and like a phoenix, I continue to rise, not for the first time, but with new clarity and purpose. This is my reprise: a return to self, to healing. I AM light.